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- ~ My thoughts and feelings
This has been my dilemma for the last 4 years. I have pictures taken by a professional photographer Zack Weber, he did an amazing job, and the book cover for Runaway Amish Girl , has his beautiful photos work on it, both front and back cover. Kinda creepy, as if a dark cloud was hanging over me. I have some amazing supportive peeps and I was told the photographer captured a beautiful, intriguing piece of ART. Things are finally making sense now and I am thinking of making a poster of this piece.
Ever since I graduated I feel like I have been fighting with the universe to figure out what is next for me. I thought life after graduation would bring so many opportunities that essentially I could be hanging from the stars. Last year has brought so many trials and tribulations, that it actually feels as if graduating with a Masters was an absolute curse, even though getting an education really had nothing to do with what I went through. It just allowed more freedom for me wallow in misery and finally recognize my own insecurities.
I lost a relationship. Not directly from them, but other people have kept me informed. The list could go on.
I want my friends to be the happiest they can be so much so that sometimes I forget to make sure I am happy too. Yes, but not completely.
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I love with my entire heart and soul, but yet my heart is extremely stubborn as well. I would do anything for those around me, but yet I want nothing in return. I even feel hurt when I am not needed. I simply treat people the way I want to be treated. However, there are times when I do need help, but asking for it makes me feel like I am an inconvenience to them.
That somehow I am not worthy. For some reason it still feels lonely because not all friends can fulfill that type of need and want. In a way God answered some of those prayers in and , but it came in bits and pieces, ups and downs. Not what I expected at all. In the end I accepted things the way they were; enjoying the people who stayed in my life, but also let the door open for them to leave if they wanted. After all, I was in search of finding wherever I was supposed to be.
Of course, letting go of people is extremely difficult for me once I feel comfortable around them. Why is life like this?? I could question it day and night, and not have an explanation. My insecurities may show sometimes, but I still know I am pretty, worthy, perfectly imperfect, and I deserve the best life has to offer. God allows us to fall sometimes so we would get back up stronger than ever. Hello everyone, I am still alive, still rolling. But despite taking too many classes at once and working full-time I found time to dress up today for an important interview with Australia.
Watch for the link on my facebook: Something scary happened on Friday the 13 th. I started the day groggily and dull like usual. Just what I like! I agreed to sign the traditional contract and now the pressure is on to continue writing. I am a tad nervous, but I am also super excited because I am in great hands. Amanda will be guiding me and she is the best role model out there! I also have fans who motivate me to continue going. So keep the motivation coming! I took a something selfies before I was satisfied, but now I am using the first one I took. Or is it selfie-Saturdays??
My smile hurt by the time I was done. I hope Sammy Rhodes appreciates my efforts. I spontaneously bought this book on amazon after seeing it on twitter. So of course I had to buy it since it was recommended by someone who has a million fans. In this book, the author talks about parents being gifts and are not returnable ;-.
The Life of an Ex-Amish Girl | My thoughts and feelings
But really, he dugged deep into his wounds when his parents divorced when he was still a kid and his struggle with depression into grown-up-hood. It is written in a light-hearted, hilarious way, but still is able to make the reader feel emotions — sad and happy. It is hard to open up to painful experiences we fear people will judge us the most, but it is so good and freeing for the soul. Opening up allows healing to begin.
Former Amish Testimonies
Tonight I went to McDonalds to grab dinner. I only go there once a year on valentines day. I ordered what should be pretty easy for anyone to understand, but apparently not the young guy at the register. Especially with all the new slang nowadays my accent should blend right in.
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Let me rephrase my order. Some people who feel a void in their lives seem to gravitate toward more destructive means of filling it, from substance abuse and restlessness to even — as of late — joining up with terrorist organizations. Why do you think some people are able to turn that yearning into something positive such as an education and a career while others drift into something more dangerous? I received a lot of emails from college students around the world who are working on class projects doing studies on Amish people or on those who have left the Amish.
The question above was from a student who was using me as an example as someone who had struggled with life and managed to pull through in a positive way rather than gravitating towards destruction. Destructive people, substance abuse, and terrorist all in one sentence! Just no way will I answer that. Those were my thoughts at first. I assume there are many reasons a person might join terrorist organizations. Or simply because they are too lazy to do the right thing. I can only assume. Living a destructive unhealthy life is a different story though.
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I was reminded of how easy it is too fall far into a pit of darkness without realizing how dark it is or was going to get because the devil knows how to entice with instant gratification. Of course, you can live a great live without getting an education, each has their own preference. I went through times where I was exhausted in all levels possible.
I CAN do this. If all else fails take a nap. I have not see the full show and am only getting these impressions from this small clip. Thanks for sharing Erik!! It will be interesting to see what others feel from this as well. The young lady with the light yellow dress seems so Fashion Forward just look at her sleeves and her boyfriend does as well. They make a cute couple. Thanks E for posting Anthro. Michelle V from FL. I agree with you Erik. But I sort of got the feeling throughout the clip that it was slanted against the Amish way of life, not just by the ex Amish woman.
Like you I can not recall either if it was stated regarding baptism or the time she left the Amish. I hope I can get to see the entire program too. Really one can only speculate based on the small clip. Much appreciated Alice and Michelle. I will try to catch this as I can as it would probably be good to see the full program. I think there often is this sort of slant in the media. Restrictions are often given as a reason either before or after the fact.
Quite a bit of talk in that one about Amish and Mennonites, though Burt makes it sound like the Amish and Mennonites developed separately in the old countries. You are right about bed courtship being a practice of the minority. Here is an interesting non-Amish view of the history of bundling. A few generations back it might have been more prevalent.
In brief, he says that the practice was picked up in the early days of the American settlements, from their neighbors. We know that the vices that slowly crept into the churches were surely not brought over to America by those Anabaptist people with high morals who sought to match their conduct and way of behaviour with Scriptural ideals.
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That holds true until you get into the more liberal groups, where head veilings and plain dress have been dropped. Then you get into pretty much the same values as typical evangelical churches might hold. Yes, that couple holding hands seems suspect to me as well. Otherwise, it looks like it will be interesting. But I do think his mentioning it so explicitly was testament to how strong the position is on premarital sex. Thanks for letting know about the other airtime!
I know he was very respected. Astute point on what the documentary chooses to focus on. Sex sells I guess. I attend a conservative Mennonite church. From that point of view I would have to agree about the one couple being staged. Her dress is neither. Hand holding is not done in public either.
I just watched this last night. Also, one of the folks featured in the show is Mose Gingerich from Amish in the City. On the whole, the show was interesting, and had some great visuals. They did focus a lot on the ex-Amish couple renewing their vows pointing out the ex-Amish community in Columbia, MO. The program talked about some of the planning and prep for the weddings. I think that the couples they featured are from much more progressive families — certainly not the more strict orders. I thought the program was okay, but not outstanding or overly informative.
Is there something similar to this in the Amish tradition? The couple holding hands is actually a liberal mennonite couple. I wish I could have watched the full show. I believe the English colonists here practiced it.